a thought!!!

English version at bottom
നിന്റെഓരോവാക്കുകളുംഎന്റെആത്മാവിൽനീഏൽപ്പിക്കുന്നമുറിവുകളാണ്. നീതീർത്തശരശയ്യയിൽമൂകയായികിടക്കുന്നുഞാൻ, പ്രാണൻപിടയുമ്പോഴുംജീവിക്കാനുള്ളഎന്നിലെത്വരഅടങ്ങുന്നില്ല. ഫീനിക്സ്പക്ഷിയുടെഉയർത്തെഴുനേൽപ്വെറുംകെട്ടുകഥയാണ്എന്ന്ഞാൻഅറിഞ്ഞപ്പോഴേക്കുംഒടുവിലത്തെഅസ്ത്രത്തോടുഒപ്പംഎന്റെപ്രാണനുംപൊലിഞ്ഞുപോയി. ഒരുപാട്പേരുടെപ്രതീക്ഷകൾബാക്കിവച്ചതിനുമാപ്പിരക്കാൻപോലുംഎനിക്ക്ആയില്ല! തോറ്റുപോയിഎന്നതിരിച്ചറിവ്മാത്രമേഞാൻലോകത്തുബാക്കിവച്ചുള്ളൂ…..

Every word of yours made fresh wounds in my soul.
I am lying silently on my death bed created by you.
My life is strangling
pan>But, the urge to live is still not subsided in me.<span styl olo
ise of Phoenix  from the ashes became just a myth for me

I was with that realized truthWith the last arrow, my soul left my body.I couldn’t apologize to anyoneFor the unaccomplished expectations, many had for me. I left behind only one thought in the worldA thought of realization that “IFAILED” !

PS: this was written in November when I was going through a very bad emotional state. I am perfectly alright now and yeah, this is my 100Th post 🙂 


48 thoughts on “a thought!!!”

    1. ithu kure munpe facebook il post cheythatha, innu oru unknown fellow athu ormmapedithu. Ithu WP il post cheyyaan vittu poyatha 🙂 enna pinne aayikkotte ennu karuthi 🙂


    1. Thank u Aneesh😊 yes even though people or situation break us down, every time we have to bounce back to our path…and it’s always a “RISING FROM THE ASHES “- effect for me….I shed my old form and become more bold and beautiful soul 😊

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      1. Yes yes….I have to recreate myself everytime I am broken down…after all ghat gives me a better way to know myself….my possibilities…thank u for the wishes my dear friend….wish you too a blessed season and new-year…I am energized right now itself after on my way back from watching a mind blowing movie DANGAL 😍😍😍😍

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      2. O pinney !! Than onnu poye !!
        Dangal kandittu undaya energy onnu channelize cheythal porayo ?

        Nammal enthu kandu ennu ezhuthunnathinu enthina pedikkunney !
        Pinney e review writing inu onninum oru pattern onnum illalo. Padam chaliyano atho kidu aano ennullathalla prashnam..What you saw ! Athu maathram mathi ! Pinney budhijeevikalodum haters inodum povan para !!
        Samayam kittumbol than e Guppy yudey review onnu vaayikkanam….enittu parayanam ithiney review ennu vilikkamo illayonnu….https://gangsofedathua.wordpress.com/2016/12/19/guppy-of-the-power-of-the-state-and-the-soul-of-the-subaltern/
        Ithu vaychittu pedikkalley …Ellam nammudey kazhchapadu poley irikkum…
        I was just trying to encourage you….
        If not movies Nattmpuram vaayichittu ettavum ishtapetta short story share cheyyamo…without spoilers…..
        Merrry Chirstmas !!!

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  1. Elaine, your emotions are quiet evident from your post, I’m glad to hear you are better now.
    Bad times make us grow better and stronger, that’s only if we stand strong and continue going at that precise moment.


  2. the urge to live is still not subsided in me. I think it increases when you are aging. Love the life with all its mundane activity. You are having that passion that you can express with fine words. Its pleasure always to read and wait for the next piece. I will read Malayalam later. Merry Christmas. Remember Soul has no constrain of space. Regards.

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