a thought!!!

English version at bottom
നിന്റെഓരോവാക്കുകളുംഎന്റെആത്മാവിൽനീഏൽപ്പിക്കുന്നമുറിവുകളാണ്. നീതീർത്തശരശയ്യയിൽമൂകയായികിടക്കുന്നുഞാൻ, പ്രാണൻപിടയുമ്പോഴുംജീവിക്കാനുള്ളഎന്നിലെത്വരഅടങ്ങുന്നില്ല. ഫീനിക്സ്പക്ഷിയുടെഉയർത്തെഴുനേൽപ്വെറുംകെട്ടുകഥയാണ്എന്ന്ഞാൻഅറിഞ്ഞപ്പോഴേക്കുംഒടുവിലത്തെഅസ്ത്രത്തോടുഒപ്പംഎന്റെപ്രാണനുംപൊലിഞ്ഞുപോയി. ഒരുപാട്പേരുടെപ്രതീക്ഷകൾബാക്കിവച്ചതിനുമാപ്പിരക്കാൻപോലുംഎനിക്ക്ആയില്ല! തോറ്റുപോയിഎന്നതിരിച്ചറിവ്മാത്രമേഞാൻലോകത്തുബാക്കിവച്ചുള്ളൂ…..

Every word of yours made fresh wounds in my soul.
I am lying silently on my death bed created by you.
My life is strangling
pan>But, the urge to live is still not subsided in me.<span styl olo
ise of Phoenix  from the ashes became just a myth for me

I was with that realized truthWith the last arrow, my soul left my body.I couldn’t apologize to anyoneFor the unaccomplished expectations, many had for me. I left behind only one thought in the worldA thought of realization that “IFAILED” !

PS: this was written in November when I was going through a very bad emotional state. I am perfectly alright now and yeah, this is my 100Th post 🙂 


About elaine ecosmith

Dreaming to be a marine conservation biologist. Hold passion for books and to write on random sparks which could result in essay, poetry or fiction. Love movies and music. I believe in finding peace with oneself and always have gratitude for all what you have got 😊☺️

48 responses to “a thought!!!

  1. Beautiful. Sometimes the sadness invokes the best in some of us. You are a success with us…

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  2. Vere onnum parayanilla it’s Deep!! Congratulations on the milestone Elaine 🙂

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  3. Very well written !!
    Isnt it an irony that you started out thinking Phoenix is a myth but ended becoming one when you bounced back becoming perfectly normal again ?

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  4. Elaine, your emotions are quiet evident from your post, I’m glad to hear you are better now.
    Bad times make us grow better and stronger, that’s only if we stand strong and continue going at that precise moment.


  5. the urge to live is still not subsided in me. I think it increases when you are aging. Love the life with all its mundane activity. You are having that passion that you can express with fine words. Its pleasure always to read and wait for the next piece. I will read Malayalam later. Merry Christmas. Remember Soul has no constrain of space. Regards.

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  6. Beautiful Elaine and all ups and downs happen in our lives. It is us only who have to come out and move forward. Congratulations for your 100th post. Great poem, marvellous.👌👌👌👌👌👌

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  7. I could not resist commenting. Exceptionally well written!


  8. Ohh.. Great .. One .. Sometimes our emotions in real life help us write things much better ..

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